Unexpected crisis

 It had been two (2) months since I have joined a new company. Leaving CMS after seven (7) years of service. I was very thrilled to start a new journey, new experience and new adventures. But then little that I knew crisis on personal level came faster than I ever thought.

TO: 

Never have I ever imagined that I will be tangled in this awkward situation cum office drama especially on personal level. While at work I always try to maintain my personal life private and minding my own business while doing my best at what I do. And being  a newbie, I have to be less aloof and more approachable while observing the environment. I guess I let my guard off for a moment and it's a mistake on my own.

 YES, I was disappointed but not surprised, all I ever asked is HONESTY. I felt that I was fooled and obviously lied, so YES I was angry. I have asked and you LIED. I am now learning to swallow the lies and suppress my anger, but please don't expect me to be perky and nice. I am not an angel, I'm just a normal human being, I get angry and upset too. And if you think I have bad mouth the both of you in any way, trust me that is the last thing I will do from now on. 

I am just trying to get through this the best way that I know, and please cancel my subscription to your issue too. 

me minding my own business 👆

 

 CANCELLING ALL MY SUBCRIPTION TO YOUR ISSUE FROM MY LIFE.

Dear Life

Dear Life,

I have given it a thought.
A long deep conversation to my self, self reflecting sometimes with tears ( a bit). I am being too crazy emotional nowadays. It felt too overwhelming at times. Mental health is so important, never under estimate your judgement and self care.

Personal Life
I'm definitely need to step up my game (easy said than done). Honestly, even at 34 years old I basically don't know what am I doing with my life. I have a good life, I am! I live a healthy life, I don't smoke, don't do drugs, never convicted any crime (serious crime - if laughing at a friend consider as crimes then I am guilty as charged)  but other than that, I am good. But seriously, I have to settle down get married and build a family on my own (don't laugh). I know I don't talk about this very frequently, most of the time I don't. My mom thought I don't even bother at all about being still single at 34 years old so she's continuously and consistently lecturing me on that. 

I do think about it, I just don't say it out loud.
I walk around like everything is totally fine, but deep down inside my shoe, my sock is SLIDING off.

I am partly at fault, despite having met with Mr.Selfish, Mr.Younobetterthanme, or Mr.Player. Yes this time around I will give it a better consideration. No one is perfect, I know that but to be in a relationship it requires full commitment from both partners. It needs two to tango right? 

Professional Life

I am struggling to be honest. I am very proud with my achievement though, I would say that I had exceed any expectations. I give it my best to my working life I would say, but not all people will appreciate you for all the hard works and achievements you strive (even for them).That's why I am considering to move on for a better future, better mental health. I can't be helping everyone else but getting all the blame when things don't go with their way. No one is capable in doing ten (10) people work load at once and still surviving. It's not healthy and I am decided not going to do that anymore. Take in-charge of your shits and I'll do mine. I can't be running around saving everyone else without drowning on my own. At least give me credits for that (which I don't get it too). So yes, it is time for a new future.

Take care.

Movement Control Order

Movement Control Order.

I'm writing this so that a year from now or maybe 2 or 3 or 10 years from now I'm reading this again and remember that, today is that day that when everyone is facing the same dilemma, the same problem the same difficulties.

It's call Covid-19 pandemic.

Affected more than one million human all around the world. 

So today is day.. erm let me count first from 18 March 2020, it's actually days 20 of Movement Control Order. We are not allowed to go to work at office, all schools are closed, any gathering is not allowed, mosque and church or any religious places are close - basically you are required to stay at home. 

Only essential businesses are allowed to operate minimally.

Has it been wonderful (referring to be able to stay at home but not the pandemic!)? maybe for the first week, after years of whining having such a hectic life, everyone is finally been able to rest, watch TV, enjoy meals with family but then 

second weeks came along.

I get bored like the rest of the world. 

Still I stay at home, catching up with my paper works and reports. I keep on saying this to myself, maybe the world need a break from pollution, less vehicles on the road, less factory operating, less noise.

"We live in a world where people are becoming more and more separate. More divided - by social status, by wealth, by politics, and by religion. If one thing is positive  that we should learn about our Covid journey, it is that our community able to come together to support each other. People we barely know, people we don't know, friends of friends." -

Original para quoted from other source.

Nevertheless, people are getting restless and worried. When will this pandemic over, will the world will be able to be same again, are we gonna be okay? 2020 will never be the same. Everything will change from now on.

So lets fight this. We can fight this just by staying at home, so stay at home. To all the front-liners, million thanks for all your hard works and sacrifices. 

May God bless all of us.

Daegu - jalan2 cuci mata :)

Thoughts 💭

So many thoughts 💭

I feel like I need a moment of myself to think about this

It’s 2020, new year new decade new start

and 2019, I have give it my best my all

Nothing change

I must be doing something so wrong that no matter what I did

It’s remain unchanged {status quo}

Choices, Chances and Changes

The 3C in life!

I can do this 👩🏻

The Arc (Gangjeongbo)

The Arc (Gangjeongbo),

Water Performance Complex - I honestly admire this complex. The minimalism looks from front and the concept is so impressive.  

very minimal landscape work but the concept whereas the building seem alienated on top of hill is impressive. There's actually one floor of ground floor level or do they call it basement? not so sure but then fill with earthworks on top and nice grasses as it looks like a hills from far.

View from the other side. This is the entrance.

Exhibition area at Ground Floor.

The roof top - with cafeteria inside. They serve such yummy cheesecake and tea with apple though! I would love to try those again *hinting here*

Bus schedule.

Note:
Direction : Daesil Station (Daegu Subway Line 2), Exit 2.

Take a right and walk straight for 130 m and take Bus Seongseo 2.
[Bus top just a pole with bus sign in front of coffee shop]

Get off at Gangjeongbo (The Art Cultural Center) Bus Stop.
From the bus stop, the venue will be located within 553 m on foot for 8 minutes

Sweet escape

Life has been tough. I thought hard time will pass by, little that I knew that harder time is just started. There are days I feel like crying and shouting at people.

I was not in situation to lend a help to others but I did it anyway out of loyalty and little that I knew people are sometimes so selfish. Not all people will appreciate helps that you offered (how many times do I have to remind my self that). 

anyway, in the midst of this chaos I guess I'm still blessed in a way. to manage to travel to the city that I love, I am so grateful for that.

November, 2019 #Busan

This trip I decided to visit Daegu.

From Busan to Deagu, and I fallen in love for this city. The city, the architecture with the nature and the simple life - I definitely can stay there.

Duryu Park. To be honest, Duryu park was not in my itinerary but I was glad I change my plan actually. It was so mesmerizing. 

Direction:

Duryu park is located in the center of Daegu City. From Duryu station on Daegu subway line 2, exit from Gate 14.

Autumn the season of soul, extremely beautiful but sad.

E-world just across the road of Duryu Park, you can see it by the road at main intersection of traffic light.

 #moment likes this make everything worth while.

to be cont'd..

Be you.

Let's be weird and wonderful together, shall we?

I am always a believer of a quote,

Love your flaws and own your quirks

Learn to be happy to be just you.

Believe me, be you. If you feel like you are less than anyone else.

Be better in your own version, be a better you.

Off course they are days even I sometimes hate my self, but learn to laugh at yourself. Don't take things to seriously, it's not the end of the world.

The thing is no one is perfect.

I said a lot of stupid things, I talk to myself a lots without even realising about it sometimes.

Until someone next to me stare or laugh at me.

When I have dateline to achieve, I tend to mumble by myself :

For example - out of frustration I said - peeing is such a waste of time! cause time is everything.

Or I once said, 

I hope today I'll be more human :p 

I feel like I can eat a dinosaur today! 

not that I am a serial killer or anything like that, but that is just how I express my self.

If I hate you, I most probably said - you are the mosquito in my life!

but believe me if I said don't make it as your habit to piss me off - cause I can be straightforward and vocal about my opinion especially when I am angry. 

I express my anger and frustration in a very odd way I guess. 

Expect the unexpected!

Honesty,

I said what need to be said, and if it not necessary to then silence is better way to move forward. At some point, some people just won't listen :p

Well, basically not all people will value you and willing to accept you just the way you are. but remember it's mind over matter. I don't mind and you don't matter. Value your circle, your family and your friends.
That's all that matter :)

Singapore April 2019

I have to skip Bangkok and Seoul-Busan trip as I have yet to transfer all my files.

It's a crazy busy life nowadays, I am officially a busy bee.

That the reason why I end up went to Singapore after all. I need a one flight away destination, so Singapore is a perfect choice. Though the conversion of currency is not so perfect! It's one of the most expensive cities in the world, my wallet cry but my not so rational mind say It's okay, money comes and goes (still crying).

Anyway, where to stay.

Park Royal Hotel is one of the most strategic hotel, MRT Farrer station just across the road next to city square mall. It's walking distance to Singapore heritage street and bugis street too!

I love heritage street the most, it give such a peace feeling walking around the street. Nowadays, if I am to have my so called alone time on my own during lunch, I always end up at India street heritage street. 

#Singapore - It feels like home.

Lighting doesn't give justice to this alley.

me on my mural explorer mode.

Universal Studio Singapore

If you are wondering if I was on that that thing! I was NOT! Thank God for that technical thing happen after one hour of queuing (when you so clueless and queued with your friend without knowing what will happen next) but thank you God for the technical issue hahaa..

Otherwise I might left my soul on that things.

aboard.hell no.

 hey kid, it's my time to shine.

Garden by the bay is my favorite. The musical show is so magical.

We've found duck here in Bugis street!

The epic and so not sorry photo bomb! dude out of my way.

To be con't! Got to go for now, so much to write and update but so little time. 

new life

hai Blog,
it has been so long since my last update.
I definitely realise how much I love blogging. It another world where I find that no one would judge me ( for the reason that no one will read this) he...
but still I don't think I let my guard down too. I really have to learn to express my feeling.

I am learning...
Learning to show that I care, Learning to express my feeling in a better way (not just my worrisome nor my anger on my forehead). I am learning to let some people in my life. I have a lots of boundaries, maybe the fact that I'm the only child I love my own space but now that I realise that I need to learn to share.

I am always a giver, but not always a receiver.

I am not that good in receiving love from other people. That's when I draw my boundaries and I build my wall. I don't ask about people personal just for the reason I don't like to talk about mine.
I have no secret to be hidden, it's a simple life.

I go to work, give it my all, come to home, spend time with my mom, watch my favourite drama and have some good sleep.

Now that I have started my career at new atmosphere, I have to say that I learn more things in life.
I slowly put my guard down, I learn to let loose and not to take things too seriously. It's okay to be not okay, it's okay to make fun of your self.

Note: I really have to update my Bangkok, Busan-Seoul & Singapore trip! So soon now that I have my new laptop :)

Talk to me in Korean!

Yes, talk to me in Korean :)

It has been a year perhaps I started to study Korean on my own.

Whenever I am free or  I need a break from works at office!

But for the last three months I totally left out my TTMIK session due to works,

So perhaps I can pick up where I left soon, quickly! 

Before my  next trip to Busan & Seoul again this coming winter!!!

Yeay!

I am now at Level 5 Session 5, but the thing about self learning, 

you have no one to talk to practice, I need to refresh again on what I learn even on Leve 1.. #sad

but again, I basically can write and slowly read korean though, but vocabulary wise! I need a major improvement. Any tips?? or website that I can refer to?

Hwaiting!

Smile

SMILE

friendly smile,

awkward smile,

hypocrite smile,

sarcastic smile,

angry smile.

different smiles still better than NO smile!

I do smile,hahhaa!! but sometimes it's annoying when you smiles and they don't smile back.

make me wanna punch those people in the face :p 

punch maybe too much, maybe step on their feet so that they will look at you.

Sometimes I give people blank stare not because I hold any grudges on them, just because they don't smiles but keep on staring. That is my "hello, do you need a smile look".

I don't bite if you smile though.

and some people keep staring on the floor, so should I start printing a "hello" and throw it on the floor instead? but again, I don't also just go around and smiles at anyone at anytime though, that would be crazy.

The point is, I definitely will smile back if you do!